IT NEVER ENDS

SOOO, I'M SO CONFUSED ABOUT ALL OF THE THINGS THAT ARE CONSUMING MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. I FEEL LIKE THE LID ON A POT THAT'S BOILING OVER. SAME THING DAY IN AND DAY OUT. SO REDUNDANT. I SAID I WASN'T BUT I AM. I'M GONNA HAVE TO PUT AN ICEBOX WHERE MY HEART USED TO BE, CORNY IT MAY SOUND BUT I'M TIRED OF ALL THESE MIXED EMOTIONS ALL DAY EVERYDAY. WHEN I WAS HARD AS A ROCK, MY FEELINGS NEVER GOT HURT BECAUSE I DIDN'T ALLOW THEM TO. I GOTTA GET BACK THERE. IT'S LIKE I HAD NO PROBLEMS. MUST'VE BLOCKED ALL THAT SHIT OUT. I'M WITH RAYNELL I'M TRYNA DISAPPEAR. THINGS ARE ONLY GONNA GET WORSE BEFORE THEY GET BETTER. I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO. EVERYBODY I TRY TO TALK TO PUTS ME IN A BOX WITH EVERYONE ON EARTH WHO HAS PROBLEMS. PROBLEMS I WISH. I'M A MANIC DEPRESSIVE PERSON. IT'S NOT LIKE I WOKE UP ONE MORNING AND DECIDED HEY FROM HERE ON OUT I'M GONNA BE THIS DEPRESSED PSYCHO. WHEN I IKEPT EVERYTHING TO MYSELF IT WAS A PROBLEM. NOW THAT I FEEL COMFORTABLE OPENING UP TO FOLKS IT'S STILL A PROBLEM. I DON' T THINK I'VE CRIED AS MUCH AS I HAVE BEEN LATELY IN MY WHOLE LIFE. THINGS THAT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ARE NOT GOOD FOR ME. I DON'T KNOW. PROBABLY NEVER WILL. I'M DONE. JUST NEEDED TO VENT. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. THEY DON'T EVEN HAVE TO UNDERSTAND. JUST LISTEN SINCERELY. THAT'S ALL I ASK. NOBODY CAN DO THAT. IT'S LIKE I'M JUDGED BEFORE I EVEN SAY A WORD. MAYBE I'LL JUST BE QUIET AND ONLY TALK TO THE PROFESSIONAL. PEACE THE F OUT.